Too Much to Do, not Enough Time

It seems like I'm running in every direction at once right now.  I can access the internet so rarely that I've got a million things to do when I finally can log on.  Once or twice a week means it takes HOURS for me to do everything I need to get done in one day.  Generally I type up a few blogs ahead of time in between getting work done to give myself a break.  Let me tell you, I need it!

Today I think I deserve a whole bunch of credit!  I downloaded a program to edit documents since Word decided to die on me.  I hate the program, but I wanted to be sure it would work before I left.  The last thing I needed was to delay the divorce even more.  I dealt out my problems with my auto insurance company.  I still need to go get my driving record to mail that in because there's an incident I wasn't in at all.  I've still got to get everything straightened out with our problems with the baby's social security card.  There's so much work to do right now and there's no way I could get all the information I needed in one day unless I spent my whole day here.  With the problems everything was giving me, I pretty much have!

I hate it when it comes down to things like this.  I feel like I get nothing accomplished.  Given so much of my work and so much of what I need to do in my life has to do with the internet, I can't live without having the internet more regularly.  Cutting it back to twice a week means dedicating whole days to work, something I didn't have to do when I had regular access.  It's really cutting into my whole life.  Then there's everything else falling on my head.

In truth, it just seems like my life is about motion right now.  I just can't stop for five minutes.  Every time I think I can stop long enough to breathe, I have to get moving again.  It's so much more than "hitting the ground running", it's more like being a nomad, can't stay in one place too long.  I don't know if I'll ever get used to this, but I really hope that everything starts to change.  I miss the calmer, lazier days.  I miss being able to relax, take a deep breath, and enjoy my time with my family.  I wonder when I'll get those days back again.